Have things ever worked out for you so much that it doesn't seem real? It's like when you climb a mountain top, you realize how beautiful it is. Time is still for the moment. You forget every single object, person, and emotion that you're attached to. You detach from reality and dive into the quantum; that all things are possible if the stars align and you put forth the effort. The stars have always been aligned. You just had to connect the dots.

I have been on the downswing for most of my life. I never connected the dots. I never looked up into the night sky and dare of the endless possibilities. I thought of what ifs and fantasized. But I never fantasized about making my fantasies a reality. I now have learned that it is not turning a fantasy into a reality, but more turning your reality into a fantasy. This is how you create endless possibilities. No one can take that away from you, because they are not on your level. I would rather have my head in the clouds just to get one look at ethereal glimpse of what my life could be. You could call me a romantic. But how could you not love everything that surrounds you? Once you start viewing within the lens of love, you start to see everything for what it is. Acceptance. It's the key that unlocks the door of love. The unknown in your life that you are scared shitless to dive head first into. But even Olympic gold medalists are terrified of their dives. And they dive every day. That is because they push their limits past the known. Because they know other divers are working while others are sleeping. When I learned to accept everything for what it is, to detach from the uncontrollable; which is everything, and I mean every little nuance and life event that has ever happened and will ever happen, and learn that what I really have control of is my perspective and my attitude on what does happen to me. I have a sense of clarity, observation, content, and have come to know peace. Through all of this, I can sense how I feel during a situation. Like okay I am scared that things are working out, and I am in the rising climax of my life. I've made mistakes, I've hit the dirt, I've gotten back up, and fallen back down. But one thing I did was never stop getting back up. That's always been ingrained into my DNA. It is in the human design. We are fighters. But if you don't wake up and see what you need to do to turn your life around, and live the story you have always wanted to write, you will be an unfinished book forever. I encourage you to keep fighting, even when the whole world is against you. I know how that is. I've been there. But in order for a diamond to be created, there needs to be a tremendous amount of pressure, then after all of the hell you've went through, you'll climb out the other side and see how beautiful everything really is.

I am going to talk about something that is taboo. I don't really like that word. Taboo. Anything that is taboo, is decided by society. I do believe that anything that falls under this category is extremely personal and sentimental. Of course it is something that we wouldn't casually share with our neighbor while grabbing the mail. This is something shared when you open your guard and show vulnerability, which is usually done when someone else shares a story about their vulnerability first. One of these taboo subjects is death. We usually don't think about it unless someone close to us passes away, you have a near death experience, you're diagnosed with a terminal illness, suicide, and homicide. And that is what recently happened to me.

This person wasn't close to me. I did go to school with her. She was 30 years old with two beautiful kids, and a hard worker. A good person. Unfortunately her life was taken away. I'm not going into details because it doesn't serve a purpose for this blog post. She happened to be one of the first people that regularly followed my content on the Purpessence podcast. She followed quite a bit, and in return, I did check her Facebook every once in a while to see what she's been up to. What I saw was someone rebuilding their life and finding their way. And I was seeing good progress. This really makes me proud that someone can have the choice to turn their life around for the better. And if my content played even a fraction of a percent towards that, it really humbles me. 

We all have a timeline. We can trace back from now to as far back as we can remember, and even pictures of us before our memories. We can see exactly how we got to where we are now. So it really is no surprise to ourselves that we feel and think this way at this exact moment. The timeline to the future is unwritten. You are the author. Ask yourself, "What do I want in the next chapter of my life?". Chapters tend to correlate with each other and come up with a final conclusion. Every hero in a story has an "all is lost" moment. It's when the hero loses everything they desire the most. He loses the girl. He can't defeat the bad guy. Or she loses the guy she loves. She messes up her big opportunity and gets fired from her dream job as a news reporter. This happens with every story. Your life is a story. Bad things in life happen. It's a fact. A fact of life. But why do they happen? Well, if they never happened, did life even happen? Or did you only exist? To know what happiness is, you have to know what sadness is. How can you know what love is, if you never had your heart break? How can you know what funny is, when you've never cried long into the night? How can you know what death is, if you don't know the beauty and value of what life brings into this world?

If you go backwards in your timeline, you become a teenager, kid, toddler, baby, to a fetus, to nothingness. Every moment you can at least find something of value in your life if you really try. Nothingness has value to. I believe nothingness, is actually the exact opposite of what you might think. It is the everything. The space between words. The calm in the wind. The peace between the thoughts. The bliss, zen, the flow of life. So really, nothingness is the foundation of life. Without nothingness, there would be no meaning to words, pictures, dancing, music, child birth, and all the highlights of your life. When you die, you rejoin this field where you were before you became life. Your flesh body dies, but your nothingness, your flow that exists in all life forms and in between life will still be. So without the tragedy of death, we wouldn't have the comedy of life. Tomorrow is not guaranteed. I wake up everyday because I value the flow of life. Where is your flow taking you?

​"Sometimes our hearts are all in, and we get wiped out. But you've got to stick it out. The only way out is through." (Gary Goodspeed from Final Space).

I referenced Gary in my last blog post as well. Can you tell that I like the show Final Space? Everywhere I am, I am listening. I write everything down in my notes app in my phone. I even text myself, and also message myself on Facebook. A few people can attest to that, and their reactions when they saw how much notes I actually take down is priceless. It is essentially a side note I can go back and reference. This quote from Final Space really stuck out for me. I had to pause and jot it down before I forgot. Gary rings so much truth in this situation. When we go all in, I mean dedicate our everyday lives including our heart, spirit, soul, body, and mind; we tend to be extremely vulnerable. And when we lose everything, we tend to think it was all for nothing, a waste of time, that dreams and love are just fantasy. The thing is, if you look at a timeline of your life from the point you were born up until now, it would make sense why you are who you are, why you are passionate about certain ideas and philosophies. The reason you are here at this point of time, is because you are the product of the events leading up to this exact moment. So when Gary says "you've got to stick it out." it means that if you keep practicing your shot, you're going to make it when the moment counts. If you want out of the situation you are in now, the only way is through. That means facing your fears head on. We all know this. We've known the entire time. But every time you run away, hide, go around, your fear, is still waiting for you. It will never go away. It will chase you forever until you're dead. We have to do things we don't want to do sometimes. That's life. We are not meant to be happy all the time. We are not meant to get along every single moment. We get angry sometimes. Sometimes for no reason. Just because we exist. Just because we woke up. But sticking it out, you will eventually get out of that rut. If you keep having bad luck, chances are your bad luck will eventually run out. By getting through situations we can put it behind us. Just because you made it through one situation, doesn't mean another one won't come up. Some people think they are riddled with bad luck. That is because they group up all of the bad things happening and put them all together in a basket. Personally, I compartmentalize my life. Just like my notes in my phone. Think of it like a library. We have genres, sub genres, shelves, alphabetical order. You can find exactly what you want because of the dewey decimal system. I do the same thing with situations, moments, emotions, philosophy, my entire life really. So when I have a big life situation I have to tackle, I treat it as a book. Each situation is a book on the shelf. Some could be a series that are related. Some could be completely unrelated. When I read books, I read one book at a time. If I don't like a book, I can always put it down. But the important thing is, when I read one book, I am not involved with another book. I make my way through the pages until the end. The more life experiences you have, the bigger library you have in your mind. If you compartmentalize, then you can go to the exact section of the library that you need to go so you can find references to face your current life situation. I call it a mental toolkit. This is when you sharpen your tools, and apply them to life.